Jefe's interview with me regarding my mother's homosexuality in episode #26 could have been better. I hope I didn't sound like I was attacking my Mother because I was not. I love my Mom. Its been over 12 years since my mothers exodus and I'm completely fine with her choices and her lifestyle. I'm not as close to her as I once was. It's something I regret, and can't really pinpoint the origins of, other than the fact that she's lived in Florida for the past decade. I don't really see her as much as I used to, and I miss her, epspecially now when we're just about to have a baby.
As for the interview.....well , when my Mother left, it was a time of great turmoil, more than our suburban upbringings could handle.....it was very much a story...with alot of ugliness and hurt. It had twists and weirdness unlike anything I had witnessed prior. For the first year or two I hovered in protective mode, for the sake of my brother's well being and to give my Dad a break.
I wasn't really affected by my Mother's leaving until 5 years after, and after a long term of silence between her and the rest of our family, I sought her out, just like I used to when in emotional neediness as a teen.....some barriers were broken and we welcomed her and her partner Alix back into our lives.
My mother and Alix strangely flow in and out of my life now...its weird but she has almost daily conversations with my sister and her grandkids and I go months without speaking to her. I honestly have no reason for that other than the distance....of which I wish there was less.......
And what of your refusal to see Brokeback Mountain?
ReplyDeleteI don't think you need to apologize for your feelings about what happened. You were going through a rough time just as she was.
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